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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 04:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

What can I do when I'm ugly on both outside and inside? What do I do? Cut myself off from the world to make everyones lives better? I'm a monster. I hurt feelings, and I say what was said to me. I feel like I'm nothing but a burden. What do I do?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And i lived it daily.

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Is Jesus God almighty?

Would this be the day?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He knew the spot.

I feel so attached and in love with a dead celebrity. My love for anyone else is overshadowed by my love for him. What does this mean?

I waited trembling.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Why do I want to give up on men?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

What did i know ?

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I never cut or harmed myself..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I will be 64.

Im still living with it.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

So, i spoilt her more .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My family never makes their pension either.

Put me off passion for life!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I said to her

We were not on the streets..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was 9 years of age.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

As i do to all so called friends.?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

This is soul school!.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

So whats the point in blame.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I write beautiful poetry .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One cannot live in the past .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was scared of men, in general

Why did i forgive my father ?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

All the time i was locked up.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We all went to grammer schools

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She loved him until the end.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She found it foreign!.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She married twice! .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I think the readers, may guess!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I could never make a relationship work though!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Who then, do I blame.?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I don,t even have a pension.

(And it was in our own minds.)

But it wasn’t much.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Comes on , in middle age.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

When she asked me how she looked .

I have no regrets .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Ive learnt so much.

My life is so biszare .

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was seconnd youngest,

She wouldn,t have been !

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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She was in good health!

It was going to be , some day.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But, we were locked up after school.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was very sick at this time too.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!